I learn not to lose control

By allowing fear

To cloud my judgment

Anxious, in a panic

What good is that

When you treat

Loves ones with disrespect

As the calm sets in

I feel guilty and ashamed

For letting the enemy

Have his way with me

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;  and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:6-7 NKJV

Hungry for food

And anything

With a soothing aftertaste

A daily boost

Is what I told myself

Knowing these things

Are not good for me

Considering the effects

Of the choices I made

Looking back

Just in the nick of time

God delivered me

Now strength and vitality

Can exist within

As I take care of this temple

Where the spirit of truth lives

My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto my sayings.  Let them not depart from thine eyes; keep them in the midst of thine heart.  For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh.  Proverbs 4:20-22 KJV

Living each day

Following the same schedule

An empty void

An unfulfilled life

It has to be more

I reckon

The feeling of stagnation

Draws me into a deep

Bottomless pit

Subjecting myself

Ignoring the call

To a life of meaning

Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not. Jeremiah 33:3 KJV

I tremble at the thought of going it alone

Persuaded through revelation

Surely this is not my home

While I live here biding my time

I must continue to fight the good fight

With the Lord by my side

He gives me courage

As I read His Word

Unwavering faith

Carries me each day

Cause I know

The victory belongs to the Lord

Assuredly

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 KJV

Awakened within oneself

To accomplish an unknown task

That leads you to a crossroad

On the right path

You recognize the difference

As you ponder in the mirror

Your demeanor has changed

The way you use to be

No longer exists

Who is this person?

Others have noticed

How well you communicate

Softly, gentle, with ease, and patience

I want to learn

To become

What you called me to be

God is faithful, by whom ye were called unto the fellowship of his Son Jesus Christ our Lord.

1 Corinthians 1:9 KJV

You may have endured

Suffering, hardships, difficulties or afflictions

Why?

The question you repeatedly ask

With pain in your heart

A message came to mine

But you never received it

God loves you

He brought you out

He kept you

Now it’s time for you to acknowledge the truth

The plan God designs is only for you

You might become broken or dismantled in transition

This is when God’s greatest work comes to fruition

  Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all. Psalm 34:19 KJV

Searching for love

How can it be defined?

Longing for that which embraces

The inner deepest part of me

It’s intense

How can I explain

He knows me

Who I am, What I need,

That which I thirst for

Fulfills me

I surrender

For this love

I will never let go

For my life is eternally yours

But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life. John 4:14 KJV

A feeling of being let down

Can leave a stain

That’s difficult to remove

You’ve washed it

You’ve dried it

But still

It was visible

Now let’s dig deep

Underneath the surface

By thoroughly cleaning

From the inside out

Removing and Replacing

The guilt, the hurt, the anger and the bitterness

With forgiveness

Wash me thoroughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. Psalm 51:2 KJV

All on my own

The struggles and rejection

That have come my way

Caused me to strive more

Each and everyday

No support

From my own family

When I fell off

A glimpse of reality

set me straight

Nothing comes easy

Dedication is what it takes

I learned that the hard way

The strength, courage and help I received

It had to be God

Who delivered me

So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me. Hebrews 13:6 KJV

I look for you

When I wake up

While I’m eating breakfast

During my travels

At my place of work

When I’m eating lunch

When I arrive at home

When I’m greeted with a smile

At the dinner table

Before I say goodnight

To shew forth thy lovingkindness in the morning, and thy faithfulness every night, Psalm 92:2 KJV

Can we start all over?

Put yesterday’s troubles behind

Mend the hurt  

That’s deep down inside.

Too many years have gone by;

But I am here now

My apology

Will you accept?

It’s long overdue

I’ve come to realize

It’s not only about me

Your feelings matter too

This time,

We walk

Not by ourselves

But as one

With God

Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. Psalm 51:1-3 KJV

Lost don’t want to be found

Carrying my own problems

Within myself

I make the decisions

Its my way or the highway

Is this what I’ve subjected myself to

Knowing deep down inside

This is not who I want to be

Pride

Has covered my insecurities

Enough!

You voice of condemnation

no longer control me

A message I received about

Jesus

Has set me free

 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Romans 8:1 KJV

Amped up

Ready to step in with both feet

Trusting God

Waiting patiently

In pursuit of someone

To pray for me

Not believing for myself

What the Lord has told me

Must remember

To believe

Prayer helps

God wants to see

That trusting in him

Begins with me

Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth. Mark 9:23 KJV

Stuck in a rut

Unable to move

There I go

Thinking too much

Absorbing the everyday issues.

Oh, here I go again

Lest I turn away

Defy the norm

That continues to lead me astray.

Not this time

It’s so real

The truth

Staring right in my face

This is not a mistake

But on purpose

That I’m here today

And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free. John 8:32 KJV

In search of a day

Without pain

Without sorrow

Without suffering

Without lack

Looking for the strength

That my Father said is mine if I ask

It’s too heavy for me

The weight is unbearable

I fell to my knees

And looked up where my help cometh

 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.  My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1-2 KJV

Take into consideration

Your life was known

Before mankind

What you see now was written

In hopes that you would realize

 He who has come

Will come again

This time His return

Will be your last chance

But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.  But the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night; in the which the heavens shall pass away with a great noise, and the elements shall melt with fervent heat, the earth also and the works that are therein shall be burned up.  Seeing then that all these things shall be dissolved, what manner of persons ought ye to be in all holy conversation and godliness,

2 Peter 3:8-11 KJV

An image I saw

It was difficult to describe

Standing from afar

Hearing deceit hidden in disguise

I’ve traveled this road

Unaware of the scars it would leave

Now

Foolishness is not the company I keep

For the wisdom of this world is foolishness with God. For it is written, He taketh the wise in their own craftiness. 1 Corinthians 3:19 KJV

Oh Father, you touched my heart this morning

You released my thoughts

Of feeling dismayed

I cried and struggled

Instead of looking for you

I decided to take matters

Into my own hands

What good did that do?

Oh, what a wonderful Father you are

You saw me in my distress

As a Father your words of encouragement

Guided me through my own mess

I recognize what I took for granted

Is that

I am blessed

In my distress I called upon the LORD, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears. (Psalm 18:6 KJV)

Although it’s been difficult

I still hold fast to my belief

I trust you God

For you and you only,

 Have been there for me

Regret, pain and sorrow

No longer live here

Because I forgave

I now have the faith to live in victory

Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done. (Matthew 21:21 KJV)

Sifting through the unwanted rubbish

Ridding oneself of the bitter taste of defeat

Torn between what is real or is it just disbelief

Pacing up and down unable to decide

What should I do

 Helpless on the verge of despair

Crying out loud

I asked God, are you still there?

I am here

Nevertheless, I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand. (Psalm 73:4 KJV)

What life brings our way

Stand strong don’t be dismayed

Another season heavier than the last

  Though the enemy may be fierce

God has a plan

It will prove to be a blessing

To those who follow His command

But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive. (Genesis 50:20 KJV)